A plane toward my dreams..

Inside a plane that took me to my biggest dream

July 6, still dizzy because of that kiss.., totally late at the airport..
.. couldn't stand the tears of my little brother, the sad hug of my mom, and the look of my dad.., some of my best friends were there and FINALLY, I felt something!
I was unable to feel for the past few weeks and I was starting to worry.., it was the fear I guess, fear to leave behind some things, fear to the possibility that they think I want to leave, even if now it is true..., I need to leave...

I couldn't forget my little brother's tears..,
I remembered when he was brought home..., and now I happily understand he's gonna be my responsibility forever..

The plane started to move and it was all so beautiful..,
I have THE experience of my life in front of my eyes, and it will be WOW!
Emotions came back to me! y qué RICO se siente el miedo, la alegría, la angustia y los latidos fuertes del corazón..
I can find again answers in my heart!

After 12 hours in the plane and 12 sweet little papers that moved my soul..,
I arrived to Madrid.... another life began..

Then, a plane to Germany..
and I couldn't stop thinking about lakes and long-nights' conversations in Cologne..

The first thing I saw when I went down the plane :)

Time to say 'goodbye'..

Time to say goodbye...
As all humans, we love tragedy...

My little brother didn't like the news.., maybe he didn't get it when I said goodbye in a memorable family weekend in the north of Peru...
Great moments with my father are not that usual anymore.., conection with my mother is not that simple anymore.., we needed that weekend off and it was amazing and confortable!

Time with friends.., time with special ones.., time with myself to control excitement and fear..

Time with you, we've said goodbye more than once during these last 2 months.., maybe we sorted some things out, maybe we made them more complicated..., some sangria in the same confortable place, some checks added to our checklists, some unfinished talks, some tender looks and some lies.., and as usual, it was perfect between us..

Plans made to stop in Germany.., impossible to skip it...
I need to see somebody before starting a new life, and timing was perfect.., before Italy, before Cameroon..

Visa Schengen opened for 1 year!
Tickets bought! - Lima - Madrid - Germany - Italy..

Then I said goodbye to my life until my dreams are achieved...

Something new will start!!!

When feeling kind of confused, desmotivated and helpless about my AIESEC carrier.. .. and what's more frightening.., when I was totally desmotivated about my psichology carrier..

A really boring evenning, sitting in front of my computer, in probably the most boring work I've ever had, an email arrived to my inbox... and hope just invaded my world.. A lifetime opportunity was offered to me because of my work as LCP in AIESEC LIMA..

Some months later and after a LONG selection process... TODAY...

... I was selected VP People Development for LC BRESCIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So.., I'm moving out to Italy with all expenses covered in there, plus a part time job in a company..

Wow!.. AIESEC is taking me now to the dreamed Italy.. Now, I can't hardly wait!!!! .. but somehow I did it since this February!!! Fuck! 3 1/2 months for selection process!!

.. from one high emotion to another very different but high still.. I love it!

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What tears mean sometimes...

Not always equal to sadness or suffering tears..

.. and they are the best ones ;)

Sharing, remembering, and feeling certain moments again can make you feel very sensitive and vulnerable sometimes... .. and as if it weren't enough!.. There are always those few people who just have that kind of power on you: they are able to hurt you very deep.. And that's really the beautiful thing for me!.. People who can hurt you the most are not your enemies.., people who can impact on you the most are those you love and those that love you back... In an specific perspective, it doesn't matter if they actually hurt you or make you happy, it doesn't matter if it's in a direct or indirect way.., cause the true fact is ONLY that they CAN.., they are the only ones that can destroy you emotionally.. :)

... and that's why a lot of people are afraid to love...

Cause nothing will hurt you more than see them suffer.., and nothing will matter to you more than their happiness, their well-being, their opinions about your decisions, and how they show to you with each act or detail that they care about you...

These kind of tears I'm talking about appear when you care...

.. then you are living!..

And you asked me again: why?..

.. don't you know I am extremaly happy for being able to feel and dare like "this"?, in a way not everybody can.., for being able to love and let you love me?.. why don't you?

But at the end of the day, at the end of the life.., I will say I conquered that fear..

Fear to suffer, fear to live, fear to die.. Hard of course, but.. tell me if you can, what really bad can happen? There is so much in the world to be afraid of.. but not this!.. not my own feelings! not even yours..

With whom will you dare to be yourself if it's not with your special ones??

But you keep asking me why?

I loose my count.. ... I love to cry.., I love feeling exhausted after it..

This time was not for you..

For my Tril.., my reason today..

An stage of my life just ended..

Ayer terminó mi período como PRESIDENTA de AIESEC LIMA...

It was amazing!!!

A year full of emotions and learning!.., full of challenges, mistakes and more learning! 

After this year I've gained so much.., impossible to describe with words, as a  dream came true...

Being LCP (local President) was definitively my best leadership experience so far and will be on my top forever...

I hope we all can maintain perspective and our AIESEC's culture. We can't forget enjoying our work, living diversity and learning from what we do each day..

About my LCP period, I made good things, I made some mistakes too..., but this isn't finished!...

.. I will stay close and I will keep doing things for my CLUL...

In the meantime...

THANKS TO ALL MY TEAM!

How I started my carrier.., some beautiful memories..

In August 2002, AIESEC became THE passion of my life and my favorite OBSESSION thanks to one important person.. 

How I wish to have known AIESEC before!!! 

Well, I got involved in this amazing organization -www.aiesec.org-, and suddenly.., all I wanted was to live all the opportunities I could live here and learn everything to achieve a leadership position in AIESEC! 

After a lot of efforts, learning and problem solving, in 2003 I became part of the "Executive Board of AIESEC Lima"!

Here my EB 2003-2004! 

A great team.., and dear friends, then and now! 

Of course I was the HR leader (VP S&L, then PD) 

.. and I have the most beautiful memories.. TWICE!!

S&L Team 2003 

Here we are all together in the Brasilian dinner and cultural presentation we organized with our brasilian Ceeders "los chuchukos" (notice our t-shirts :) 

After one year of "S&L", in 2004, we evolved in "People Development area"!!, having a lot of changes, challenges and a new team.., while I started dreaming with new big horizons, that finally came true..

People Development team & CLUL in NATCO 2004

Being an LCP (Local Comitte President), means a lot to every passionate aisecer I'm sure.., and after presenting my 1st strategic plan, motivational letter, key indicators, being evaluated by a professional panel, and wait nervously for the voting process.., I finally was elected LCP AIESEC Lima!

A lot to thank my former LCPs (2002-2004), my dearest friends..

A lot of LC times.., conferences.., learning.., moments of crisis.., moments of truly happiness.., trying to lead the team.. 

Definitively, my best experience in AIESEC and in life!

EB 2005 & NATCO Oct 2004 with newies